I dealt with some lies, so now it’s time for some truths.
- You are perfect and amazing right now, as you are. You don’t need to fix or work on anything. You don’t need to be taller or have a mate or a new job. If you are down to your last dime and smoke and drink you are perfect. If you can truly understand that you are where you are because it was something you chose to experience, then you also know you can deal with and overcome anything in your current situation that you don’t like. Not what others don’t like, but what you don’t like. I didn’t like smoking and felt every time puff like a failure and like I was lesser than, and slowly killing myself in front of my kids who depended on me to be both mom and dad. I could not quit until I accepted myself with kindness and that my “addiction” was a compulsion. I knew I should not smack people’s phones out of their hands, even though I often have the compulsion to do so. So I can clearly control my compulsions. And I realized that it was not about my weaknesses, but that addiction is a master that would never be satisfied. If I gave in and had a smoke, in an hour or so, I would want another, and another. Just like the last 30 years of my life. This master would never be pleased. And I refuse to be a slave! When I thought of it that way, put it into respect of something I would rally against, I would fight with my soul, and outside thing that wanted to impose its will on me then I was able to raise the warrior that lives within me. That warrior is who quit smoking. That warrior said, had the strength and voice that the “addict” did not. So my perfection, my dormant warrior was there all along, and I just had to find the right mindset to awaken her. We all are perfect, we all have the seeds within us to be all we were created to be, sometimes we just have to remember to water them and give them sunshine.
Read more in Truths Part 2